Wow, it's been a while

Sometimes you have to make mistakes in life to "get it". Ya know?

Instead of saying "why does this always happen to me?" when i'm unhappy...I am saying "Why do I always do this to myself?" And miraculously, I actually get answers. Everything that happens to me, is in some way, a result of my own actions, and in extreme circumstances when it's not, I am the only one who can do anything about my own situation. I know wow this all seems so simple, but it took 25 years to come to this conclusion. I am HAPPY! Imagine that. I am happy just knowing that I control my own universe. I control my own destiny. I do...just me.

So no onto my life. Here in Durango. School. Work. Running.

I am taking physics, biology (intro), and organic chemistry. Really enjoying Chem and bio. I think I would also like physics if it weren't for my inept professor.

work is going well. I'm not doing full time because I don't want to kill myself and I'm trying to take care of myself. I am running and working out. I have a race this weekend up Animas Mountain!!! 6.6 miles....3.3 up and 3.3 down. Crazy stuff. But it's fun...I love it.

I'm back with Andy after our brief come apart. I love him like crazy. We started talking about Christmas plans recently and I'm hoping above all hope that we can be together for atleast part of the holiday. I would love for him to come to NY. We are doing really well. We aren't living together right now which is working out so well for both of us. I know it sounds weird and it is weird to kind of step back from where we were. It's also healthy though. I think we were a little enmeshed in eachothers emotions and this step back is doing us a world of good. I have a great feeling about my life right now. I'm going to school for what I want. I'm living where I'm happy and I'm with the man I love and I think we're treating eachother better than we ever have. All in all...life is good. Good Kharma to everyone!!!! I'm sending it your way. I love you all!!!! Happy September!